biggest fight we've ever had...

okay we couldn't even make it a year before we messed it all up... Its really pathetic...


Asked To apologies
Trust betrayed,
Hearts broken,
Blood flowing over perfect ground,
Tears over flooding the rivers of spirit.
Hearts in cages,
Trying to protect themselves,
from the next poison tipped arrow
that tries to bury itself.
Can it be fixed?
Or Will this time be the breaking of the thread that holds us
as the five fibers to make one.

We once promised to never let the thread break
but...
under all the stress
will it snap?
because were to proud and arrogant
to say the simple words
To rebuild what we have already destroyed
Or are we set on complete annihilation
of we have loved and enjoyed so much?

I can not speak for those of
that are not with me... but
I can speak for myself as I watch
the tears and blood flow together down the hill of hope, love, truth and trust
we have build and that's being destroyed by suspicion.
My heart is wounded once more.
no matter how much steel and iron
I build up to try to protect it...
I FEEL... BETRAYED... HURT... DECEIVED... !!!

my heart cries out in pain
as I suffer through what has been laid on my back.
I scarified everything
and told you nothing of my pain
but here it is...
I can not possibly scream it loud enough for you,
to even begin to recognize what I have lived.
The fearless up hill battle I have lead for you and those around me
never thinking of myself as long as you were by my side
and now you leave
And I KNOW what will happen
I will sit by the phone hoping you will call
but you never will
and once again I will be left behind
bleeding in your past... and you won't even look back to see
if I have lived from the wounds you've bestowed on me.

Call me what ever names you will
but
I Have been made the villein in my own family
because I dared to speak my mind
and I am the one that has to apologise
for having the daggers stuck in my back
and having arrow after arrow pierce my heart
and tyring to hide my wounds from the world.

Trust betrayed,
Hearts broken,
Blood flowing over perfect ground,
Tears over flooding the rivers of spirit.
Hearts in cages,
Trying to protect themselves,
from the next poison tipped arrow
that tries to bury itself.

I've broken in on myself
but I will not apologies
when I am not in the wrong!

read that and see if you can feel like I am...

~Alianne Morrigan

Look at this and realize something Sophie
you HURT me! NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND!
I love you still but till you can see that I am not the drama queen here just the one that is bleed! I hope you have a nice time at your new school with out me in your life.

And you dare say I never hide my pain that I am and open book... because I bet it never crossed you mind that I hide my pain with anger and harshness?