I am Dead!!

a little poetry before my death... this came to mind after I figured I was dead meat in more than one way....

Kill ME!
kill me!!
Take the dagger shove it thought my heart,
KILL me!!
Take the gun and pull the trigger,
kill ME!!
place your hand and place them well and push,
down stairs,
off cliffs,
out of windows,
JUST KILL ME!!
Take the axe and firm and hardy,
swing it fiercely,
and then KILL ME!!
I 'm already dead!


Why right such a 'nice' poem??
because I am dead!
for like a bizillion reasons...
my mom is PO'ed because_
everyone knows I am sick!!
EVERYONE
my french apparently thinks I am not all that sick,and I should have got my homework done even through it which can I Manichean I don't recall ever hearing about the homework she's talking about, and on top of this
teachers failing me!!
and by failing i mean FAILING!!!
like with the lowest score I've ever gotten I can fix it if I'm up through the next 49 hours with no sleep which AKA means I will get sicker trying to bring up my damned french grade whippti-do I get to miss out on my 88 days (yes only 88 days) of independent freedom and unmezzleness (is that a word)because I'll be so damned sick here!!!
The second reason I am dead is because I have a student, teacher, parent conference (we have the every quarter. yeah, are schools whacked like that) and my mothers going to blow the head off on of my teacher of history, because may I say he said he would talk to the french teacher and never did!!
YEAH! talk about responsibility to the kids but look at yourself too. That's not very responsible now is it??
The third is I don't always each like I should and well lets say I am getting the all to common threat of getting a tube stuck in my side... that one sort of getting old guys .
and seriously it's not like I am anorexic or anything
so chill

so let's just say you can kill me or I can kill myself from sleep depression take your pick

not really wanting to die but looking at the only real way out if I want to avoid a battle of minds and word. looks like I am going to have to ready the cavalry


Alianne